A book by Philip Yancy “Dissappointment with God”, that I picked up this morning at church, rekindled something in me and galvanised other things. What do I do when I feel God is unfair? Usually I come to the point of saying “
All things work together for good…” but this morning’s experience was unnerving – now the mist is clearing. Writing about will help, so this morning, at some time in the night when I was set on doing one thing -sleeping! As I tried to nodded off, God prompted me to get up. I must of said something like, in my mind, “No, I need the sleep” Well I nodded off and did actually get up some hours later and nearly ran into the kitchen. I was so motivated! God came down, it was a moment of His annointing and I cried out for God. I was desperate for Him. There was no particular drama or crisis, I just so much wanted more of God! It was a real step up - I was not normally like this.
What does all this mean? – I am not advocating disobedience or refusing to obey but I know that God esteems allegiance and determination. I think of the wrestling of Jacob:
Genesis 32:24-26 New International Version (NIV)
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
”Jacob,” he answered.
28 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, [e] because you have struggled with God and with men and have overcome.”
29 Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.”
But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there.
The key verse verse here is 29 – we really really need to know our boundary. Whilst God admires guts, Jacob went to far and conveyed in 29 that God was on man’s level and so answerable to a man!!!!!!!!!!!
Considerable virtues are honed into us as we wait…
